||Disappointed In Myself.
hmm today wasn't a good day. i've been down lately for the things i have done. Everynight i cry myself to sleep because i disappoint someone important in my life. sometimes i hurt my body, my parents, my friends, and espeically God. i've done things that hurt my body and could hurt me in the long run, i disappoint my parents, i let down my friends, i'm not faithful to God.
I've done some not so good things this pass few weeks and i regret every second of it. I've done things that can alter my life forever, i put others and myself in danger at times. i realli hate what i do. my actions are wrong and i wish i could take them back. sometimes it's just simple like i said something bad, or something complex where my life in danger.
everything i do will haunt me through life. even tho people say live for the future, it won't happen since people find dirt on you to trash you. it seems to me this world is full of hate where we get bored doing good, now the new thing that's in is doing bad. we live in this world where we call each other names to make us feel better, betrey friends, lie, steel, and hate. but it's all second nature to us now.
i've hurt many people, people that i love, people that i don't know, and people that i don't like, sometimes it's intensional and sometimes it's by mistake. i've relized i've lived my life an aweful way to live life. yeah at the time it was 'fun' but soon it will catch up to me and hurt me in some way. i kno people talk about me, i bring the drama to people. i'm the one that started having people talk about me because of my actions.
i ask one thing of you, you don't have to feel bad for me, you don't need to stop talking bad about me, its nothing of that sort. just please pray for me and i will pray for you. this world needs more people to pray for each other.
In the Name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirt. Amen.
Our Father, Who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy Will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil. Amen.